Ok, I know it's been a while again. I just haven't been able to put a whole lot here that I haven't put over on the other one. Whee.

A couple of my best online friends have been spending lots less time on lately. And it seems that when we're on we only exchange a few words while they're doing other stuff. One's got a new girl he's trying to woo, the other's just trying to take a break from tcz. I guess I can't begrudge them having lives of their own, but I miss being able to talk to them like before. Ah well. Everything changes, but there's a comfort level in things you've come to depend on staying the same. Makes TCZ a lot less inviting to me.

If I didn't have other stuff I needed to do, I think I'd probably stop connecting so much. But I'm trying to get work done on Luna. Jason's agreed to take over for Voght as my coding partner. I probably could have done it myself, albeit very slowly, but I want to get this fucker done, and being the writer's time consuming enough without also being the architect.

Anyhow, this is enough of this. I've got to clean up catshit and review the stuff for my cit test one last time.

There's a new tcz blog up, at www.tcz.org. I'm glad everyone thought it was worth putting up again, and after the old one went down 6 months ago, I thought all the ugliness involved over the other one had been forgotten. But of course, no. I just had my balls kicked, figuratively speaking, again by someone who I consider to be a little more than a mere tcz acquaintance. Fuck. I don't even know why I bother connecting there, sometimes. When I got upset, he's like, oh I love pushing your buttons. Like it's some big fucking joke. I know it could have been handled a little different, as this person likes to tell me, but it's easy for him to say that. Hindsight is ALWAYS 20/20, and he wasn't on the receiving end of that cannonball of shit. I don't NEED that fucking shit in my life. So it never came back up, even though there were still a bunch of people who wanted to do it, because I don't need anymore asshole monkeys on my back who know half of a situation and think they know all that's going on, and that they can do everything better than you. I can't believe I bothered apologizing about stopping it, like I did something bad for not wanting to get sued or endure constant screaming about how I'm participating in admin abuse. It's in one fucking ear and out the other. People ignore apology and read it as admission of guilt and it only makes me look like an idiot for trying. I'm not sorry for shutting the fucker down, not anymore. It was a good thing for a while, but ultimately, it was screwed because people are idiots. Now this new one gives us all the same things, and it's under an established rule system that people have already accepted rather than a "use your good judgement" catchall, and it's governed by the admin. So if you're reading this, and you know who you are, you can suck it. I never actually wanted to RUN anything, I just wanted it to be there. If I had wanted to be a controlling freak like you claim I am, the blog would have never gone down. Do you know why? Because I would have controlled who would be allowed to post on it, I would have exerted supreme control over the content of the posts, and I would have established a long system of rules designed to help me exert my authority. But you never really thought about that, did you?

I can't make up my mind whether I should rant or talk about something else. I mean, sure, ranting is probably healthy for me, but does anybody actually want to read my ranting about how my right contact lens is going to take 4-6 weeks to replace? Probably not.

I've got notice for my appearance for the citizenship test again. June 23, 940 am. Whee! Andy's had me test his webpage to see if his webcam works, and I picked out all the classes I hope to take this fall. Pretty fun, neh? In about an hour, I'll head down to Jackson Square, where I'll pick up deoderant for Bob at the local pharmaplus, and maybe some gum. That reminds me, I have to take my antibiotic. It makes my breath really crappy. Stupid clindamycin. So on the whole, I've been living a really awesome life. I guess I'd better get back to work soon. The excitement's killing me. :-P Sides, I want to be able to buy that 3k camera by this time next year. It'd be cool to have.

You know what's just about impossible? Finding a store that carries webcams for OSX. Have I mentioned this already? I can't remember. I've been trying to get an iBot, but they have to be ordered, and the supplier's out of one until the 15th, and the other until the second... of June. Yeesh. Guess I'm SOL as far as cams go for a couple weeks.